Mind Games

"Nicki where's MaKayla?"

"Faree I never had a baby... I swear"

SB just looked down. It's been two days since he got home from the hospital. He still hasn't asked what happened so he still believes what ever he imagined was real. This worried Nicki. 

"Faree I'm going shopping, wanna come?"

"Sure...."

1 hour later they were dressed and while he headed outside to the car Nicki went to the kitchen and grabbed a water and headed outside. 

"What? Is the car locked?" She asked looking at him funny. 

"Nic why am I scared to get in?" She sighed but it was more of a happy sigh. "Faree don't you remember our accident?" She pulled her hair back and showed him how badly her forehead was cut. 

"Oh my god Nicki what happened!" He rushed to her and looked at her head closely.

"Lets go back in Faree, we can shop later." She walked into the house and closed the door behind him then met him on the couch and started to explain. 

After an hour of explaining he was starting to get it. He felt sad. He felt scared. But most of all he was disappointed for many reasons. 

"So I was jealous? And that nearly killed us?"

"Faree don't think about it like that"

"What other way is there to think about it?" The room went quite and he stared at the floor. After a while Nicki spoke up. 

"Come on, how about some shopping now?" He didn't answer, but he did stand up. Nicki grabbed her keys off the table and started behind him towards the door then he made a right and went straight upstairs. 

"Safaree? You coming?" He didn't even turn back. 2 seconds later she heard his door close. 

The doctor said it would be likely for him to go through a bunch of different emotions. Confusion being one and also depression. Nicki went to his room. She knocked, no answer. She was about to turn away when she heard the door unlock. She opened the door and saw him getting back into bed. She didn't talk. She just laid with him and they fell asleep. 

Nicki was awoken by Safaree yelling "Makayla" over and over. She thought it was cute how he wanted a daughter with her and he already had named her. But what she didn't like was that it hurt him to not have one. She continued to listen to the things he was saying. It started to sound like he was arguing with someone. Then she heard him say 'dad'. Although she knew all about him, he didn't talk about his dad much. Only that he made him feel bad all the time, like less of a man. Nicki knew she had to build Safarees confidence. She took a deep breath.

"Faree, Faree wake up!!" 

"What's wrong?" 

"Can you come with me to the kitchen?" When she asked that he just looked at her, directly into her eyes but he saw how serious she was. For a second she thought he caught on to her plan but he didn't which made her laugh to her self. She grabbed his hand and they both stood up. Him leading the way to the kitchen. 

"Want anything specific?" He asked when they got in there. 

"The cereal, but I can't reach it" he grabbed the cereal and handed it to her. 

"Faree, you know I need you for the bowl too" he smiled when she said she needed him. It was working out. But how long was it going to take? 

"Come on, I gotta pee" 

"Onika, I know you short but I'm sure you can reach the toilet" he joked

"I just want you to come with me babe, makes me feel safe" she made a sad face that turned into a smirk as she turned her back to him. He picked her up and carried her to the bathroom. Faree looked happy, which made her happy. But there was one thing still on Nickis mind, a daughter. 

Please Forgive Me ( part two )

(SB POV) 

How could I let my emotions get the best of me like that? What if I lost her forever? I can't believe it. "CALL 911, PLEASE! Help us!!!!!" I kept yelling for help but nobody could hear me. I looked down and held her lifeless body. The last time we talked it was an argument. I can't believe I was ready to give her up. I was willing to let her be with Drake. But if she makes it I will fight. Ill fix this. "Please forgive me Nicki" I whispered to her then kissed her forehead. 

"Sir we have to get you to the hospital" 

"Why? She's hurt not me" 

"Sir, don't you feel your leg? Your head? do you feel dizzy at all? WE NEED ANOTHER STRETCHER". I immediately looked down and saw the deep cut in my leg. But I couldn't worry about me. I needed to be with Nicki. I got up to walk and show them I'm fine but that didn't work. I fell right next to Nicki. "I love you babe" was the last thing I said before everything went black. 

We were out of the hospital in no time. Nicki was mine, I had no worries. My head still hurt a little but as a man I couldn't show that. I'm in love with a girl that I can spend my life with. I'm so lucky! Damn yo wtf is that!? I thought to myself. Around the same time everyday since I left the hospital I feel like something is poking me in my leg, like a needle. Must be from the accident. Oh yeah, Nicki is pregnant... My leg might messed up but my dick game still good. Damn, I'm kinda hungry! Fuck this diet yo, it ain't shit. But it's best I stay fit. Nicki wants me to diet with her so that's what i'll do! Fuck... This room is hot. And there goes that pain again... I hope we have a girl.... I want a little princess. A little coon would be cool too but a coonette to be just like her mother is better. I couldn't help but smile whenever I thought of that. I wouldn't mind having a son either, at all actually. I'm happy with whatever! I'm just glad we made it through everything. I think I was meant to be with Nicki. Speaking of her, I haven't seen her in hours... But it feels like weeks. Where is she. I started to yell her name but she was really far away. I tried to get up but for some reason I felt glued to the bed. I moved until I felt that sharp pain again. I heard Nickis voice getting closer and closer... What's taking so long? I kept feeling soft hands shake my face but I don't see anyone. I actually don't see anything. 

 [Nicki POV] 

I see him start to move so I yelled for the doctor. For the last 2 months he's been doing this. But this time is different. His feet moved too. He isn't paralyzed anymore! "What's taking so long!?" I yelled while I continuously pressed the nurse button by his hospital bed. Then i sat in the chair near his bed and thought back to the day of the accident. 

*flashback*

"I don't need stitches just let me see him"

"Ma'am you can see him soon, please! You need to be treated" after a while she stopped fighting. It took about a half hour and then she was back by his room door. 

"Um why is he still sleeping" she looked around confused. 

"THERE'S ABOUT 6 DOCTORS IN THIS ROOM, SOMEBODY KNOWS SOMETHING!!!!" 

"Miss please calm down, a nurse will come in here and explain to you as soon as we leave"

*end of flashback* 

"Ma'am did you hear me? I said your boyfriend is out of his coma now." Nickis head spun around and she saw him waking up. They locked eyes, didn't move, didn't show emotion. The doctors walked out the room and about 2 minutes later a tear ran down her cheek. 

"I've missed you" he didn't reply. Just stared at her stomach. 

"Aren't you happy? Everything can go back to normal!" She said now smiling.

"You killed my baby so everything can be "normal" ?" 

"Safaree what baby?" She asked as the doctor walked in. 

"Um... What's he talking about a baby!?" 

"In a coma you don't stop living, his dreams lived on while his body laid still. He'll realize it was just a dream sooner or later." 

Nicki sighed and sat down, she whispered to herself... 'Will this ever end?'

Lmfaooo look at u all confused and shit :[[ I'm going to start writing and posting more frequently btw! How you actually like this story. 

Please Forgive Me ( part one )

Haven't updated in forever lol enjoy 

Nicki came back home a few hours later. It gave both of them some time to cool off. When she walked in she immediately spotted SB on the couch starring at the door. She went to talk to him but he spoke first. 

"I just wanna know were you with HIM?" He said as calm as possible. Nicki wasn't expecting that she was confused. "With who SB?" She replied with an attitude. He shook his head and stood up. Slowly making his way to the kitchen so he wouldn't hurt his foot too much. "I asked you a question....who?" SB looked at her for a minute. At first he felt like she truly was confused but then he thought back to all the text messages and calls he'd found earlier. He picked up her phone and pulled them back up. "Him" he simply said. She shook her head no and walked over to the fridge thinking the conversation was over. "Who is he?" "Why isn't his number saved?" "Are you cheating on me?" "When did all of this start?" "Answer me dammit!". SB finally took a minute to breath after asking all his questions. He figured she wasn't going to answer any of his questions so he started to leave the kitchen. He heard a small whisper. "I know you didn't just say what I think it was. Get in the car Onika". SB charged upstairs not caring about his injured foot. 

(SB POV) 

How could she? She wanna talk to that niggas after everything we been through together? If he wants her he can have her. 

(No POV) 

When he got back downstairs he was putting on his jacket. He didn't even realize he was crying. He noticed she was still standing in the kitchen. "DIDN'T I SAY GET IN THE FUCKING CAR ONIKAAA!?!" She jumped at his voice and hurried past him into the car. She noticed him crying but decided against it. He began speeding and crying even harder. 

"Safaree, stop the car" 

"Safaree STOP!" She yelled a little more annoyed now. They have been speeding down the streets of L.A for 20 minutes now. She didn't know where they were going or why he was so mad. She just wanted to be home with him. He passed through red lights, stop signs and almost hit a few people. When she looked into his eyes she saw anger which scared her. She saw him mad before but this was new. She never saw him mad to where he would ignore her, 'what could be so bad that he couldn't talk to his girlfriend about? His bestfriend?' She thought to herself but then her thoughts wen't away as the car slowed down. Then she heard him yelling her name. "Why are you yelling at me?" She asked but he continued to yell her name and apologize. Then she realized she was looking at him holding her in his arms and the car was completely ruined. He wouldn't stop crying and telling people to call 911.

The Silent Treatment

             Nicki had been crying for two hours now. She thought to herself maybe she should wake him up but she wasn't ready to admit she was wrong yet. He finally opened his eyes , he went to move then he felt a sharp pain in his foot. He yelled out causing Nicki to jump. She was cleaning up his room out of guilt. She really felt bad. She didn't know how to explain her self to him. 

"What the fuck did you do?" 

Nicki being the stubborn person she is yelled back at him. Instead of going with her well thought out apology she cursed him out and blamed him. 

"I didn't do anything! This is your fault!" 

"HOW!?!?" 

"Safaree don't act like you didn't leave me when I needed you the most"

"Onika, are you kidding!? You were SLEEPING! WTF could I do for you!?"

She started to lower her voice, "hold me......"

          SB got up and hopped to the couch. He didn't want look at her. At this point he was as mad at her as he had ever gotten. He thought he could never hold a grudge with her but that was then and she'd never physically hurt him before this. He began to think to himself how this could effect him. 

                     (SB POV)

What if I can't dance anymore? What if I start to walk funny? What if I can't ride any of my motorcycles? What if I can't forgive her?

(No POV)

              He felt a tear roll down his cheek but he didn't wipe it. He let it fall. Nicki has been sitting on the couch next to him for 10 minutes now and he didn't noticed. Either he didn't notice or he didn't care. Either way it hurt her. She just stared at him. She didn't know what to say. She knew she had to apologize. For hurting him and for blaming him. She just needed to know he forgave her. Before she knew it she woke up on the couch. She was surprised, he never let her stay there the whole night. She sighed because she figured she had a lot of making up to due. She stood up and went to go do her morning duties. 

               After her shower to went to find SB. "Want me to change your bandage?" She asked as he played Black Ops on his playstation. He didn't look away from his game. He just ignored her. She never knew how it felt to be ignored by him..... She didn't like it. He was her rock. When she broke down he held it together for both of them. She sighed and went to sit on his lap. She figured he would tell her move but at least he would be speaking to her. But she was wrong, he didn't say a word. He just continued to play the game. This made her mad. "I don't have time for your little attitude" she sighed and walked off after again not getting a response from him. She was tired of the games. 

SB still didn't want to talk to Nicki but he did notice she wasn't home. He started to wonder where she went. He called her phone then realized she left it. When he went to get it he saw a lot of text messages and calls to and from an unknown number. 'Wow, so she doing sneaky shit?' He asked hisself while putting down her phone and returning to his room. 

Surprise Visit

SB came in with his duffle bag around 4 P.M. The house was dark just like he left it. He figured Nicki was still in a bad mood. He went to drop off his gym bag and then shower before going to get her out of bed. When he opened his room door he heard light snores and smiled at the fact that Nicki went in there to find him. He took of his sneakers so he can quietly walk over to the bed to give Nicki a kiss before he got in the shower because he was sweaty, then he would lay with her until she woke up. While he was walking over he stepped on something and yelled.
"FUCKKKKKKKKKKK" he tried to stop yelling because she was sleep. He didn't want to wake her up but failed. She popped up when she heard him yell and ran over to turn on the light.
"Omg Safaree what are you doing here?" Nicki asked confused. SB didn't answer her, he was busy looking around in shock. He finally looked at his foot which caused him to get madder. He had blood dripping from his foot. SB liked to seem tough but he couldn't deny he hated blood. He could never stand the sight of it. He was across the room holding on to the dresser for support. Nicki looked down and noticed his cut. Before she could say something she saw his eyes close and he started to fall. She ran to catch him so he wouldn't fall but she was too late.
Nicki was panicking, she felt guilty and she was scared. She went downstairs to go get some water to pour on him. When she got back with a cold water bottle she stood in shock for a minute. She grabbed the alcohol and band aids off the dresser and started to clean him up before she actually woke him up just in case it was too over whelming for him again. She looked at the cut and wiped away the tear that escaped her eye. She no longer felt drunk, she didn't feel anything but the numbness in her heart. She was numb and mad at nobody but her self. Since she is so small he couldn't pick him up so she dragged him over to the bed and layed him down. His feet were hanging off the edge. She cleaned up his foot then put a bandage. She put him under the covers and went back to where he was sitting at first. It was then that she noticed all the blood he lost and she couldn't help but let her tears flow. She continued to cry as she walked to the bathroom to get some towels to clean up the floor although it was no use since it was white carpet. She began to get mad again. She was about to go into another drunken rage.
(Nickis POV)
This is his fault not mine! I shouldn't feel bad. I shouldn't even be helping him. He left. Who gave him the right to come back? I can't believe it. He left me but he got me feeling like this is my fault. Nigga how old are you? You should know to look down when your walking! Fuck this.
(No POV)
Nicki gave up cleaning the carpet and started to walk out the room. She noticed his bag on the floor and she walked over to it slowly. Wondering if she should look inside. She slowly unzipped it then she slid down the door in defeat. He hasn't left her, he just went to the gym for a couple of hours. That's when she seen a little paper under the dresser. It read ' Nic I'll be back, just need to work out, a coon gotta stay sexy ;) - BC1 ' Nicki began to cry. The note must have fallen because the window was open so she couldn't have seen it earlier. She felt stupid and she sat there crying her eyes out.

Does the Truth Mean GoodBye?

It's been two weeks since the affair started and SB was getting suspicious. Nicki didn't want to be with Tanya but she couldn't let SB find out what happened in 11th grade. She just couldn't. SB knew something was up. Nicki would leave late at night. She came back one morning with a hickey on her chest. SB saw it when she was changing then she quickly tried to hide it. SB wouldn't sleep with her any more. He'd rather stay on the couch. He bearly looked at her nor touched her. This was killing her. Some days she would come in crying. She couldn't take it any more.
"Safaree" She cried.
"What's wrong Nic?"
"I miss you"
"I'm always here what do you mean?"
"I have to tell you something"
(SB POV)
I'm tired of the lies. I honestly don't have time. I just hate to see her cry. I love her smile too much. I wonder what she has to tell me. Is she cheating on me? Is it over?
(No POV)
"Safaree are you listening?"
"Sorry, what were you saying?"
"In 11th grade I .... I .... I" Nicki started to cry even harder. SB rubbed her back. He had so many thoughts running through his head.
"It's okay Nic tell me"
"I kissed Tanya.... I don't know why! I just ..... I don't know! But I was curious and ....." She saw the smirk on his face . "What's so funny?!"
"Nicki I know that! I was there! What's the big secret!?"
Nickis eyes got wide. "Omg I feel so stupid Faree!!" She cried more. "Nicki babe what did I say? I'm sorry"
"Tanya.... She forced me to have an affair with her or she would tell you things, LIES! But I was scared and..."
"That's who gave you those hickeys?" SB said more calmly then she expected. Nicked just nodded without making eye contact. SB touched her chin and pushed her head up to make her look at him.
"You didn't have to do that Nicki, why didn't you just tell me?"
"I don't know Faree maybe because I'm stupid?" Nicki got up and went to her room. She didn't come out all day. Being with Tanya made her feel nasty. Not because Tanya is a girl but because she was a cheater. And all for no reason. She knew SB was mad but didn't say anything. But SB wasn't mad. He actually understood. He was uneasy about the fact that she went behind his back but seeing her a mess was enough suffering for him. He knew she was truly sorry. But he also knew she needed space.
The next morning when she woke up it was around 2 P.M. She didn't usually sleep that late. When she went to go look for SB she noticed he was gone. His duffle bag wasn't in the closet where it usually is and a couple of clothes from his dresser were gone. She knew she messed up but she didn't think leaving her was the right answer. She couldn't take it. She started to mess his room up. She threw clothes every where and poured all his jewelry onto the floor. She couldn't breath from all the crying and movement at the same time so she layed in his bed and soon enough she was asleep.

Black Mail

When Nicki and SB got back to the car Nicki let out a deep breath. SB looked at her waiting for an explanation. Nicki just looked at him. SB nodded in an understanding way then pulled off. Nicki had her eyes closed most of the ride until she got a text.
Tanya - hope you tell him before I do ;)
Nicki - what do you want!?!
Tanya- you should know
Nicki didn't reply she just thought. She was so deep in her thoughts that she didn't realize they were parked in front of their house.
"Nicki!?!?!"
"Yeah Faree?, I'm sorry"
"It's okay just come on let's go inside it's freezing" Nicki nodded her head in agreement then started to get out the car and make her way into the house. She went upstairs and locked her door then later down in the dark. After SB checked the alarm and locked all the doors he went to go talk to Nicki. He realized the door was closed so he went down to the couch to get some sleep. But he couldn't he wanted to know her secret. It was killing him.
*the next morning*
SB woke up with Nicki starring at him. She was sitting on the couch opposite of him biting her lip nervously. 'I can tell him' she kept repeating to herself. Then she got a text.
Tanya- we don't have to tell him
Nicki- so why'd u bring it up!?
Tanya- I mean u can come over and we can talk about other ways to keep this a secret.
Nicki- NO
Tanya- see you at 7 tonight <3
Nicki sighed loud and noticed SB was now sitting up watching her.
"Hey Faree"
"Wassup Nic? Something bothering you?"
Nicki quickly changed the subject. "I'm hungry Faree I just wanted you to wake up and cook for me" she said forcing a smile. SB knew she was lying but he let her slide, he was too tired to fight.
After breakfast they just chilled out all day. SB was patiently waiting for her to tell him. At around 5:30 he thought she was finally about to tell. "SB?"
"Wow you haven't called me that in a while but what's up?"
"I have to go" Nic said rushing to the door and leaving before he could even object.
(Nickis POV)
What could she want from me? Money? Well let me just go and see. I was kinda anxious to get this over with. Is it that bad? Why am I so scared SB will loose feelings for me if he found out? Damn I think I messed up big time.
(SB POV)
WTF? Where did she go? She couldn't even say where she was going? Maybe if I text her I'll get some answers. Maybe this has something to do with Tanya weird ass. Well I'll see later, I need a nap!.
(No POV)
Nicki pulled up to Tanyas house. She sat outside for a couple minutes because she didn't know if she should go in or not. Finally she took a deep breath and got out the car. Before she even knocked on the door Tanya pulled it open. She was standing there with a big smile on her face.
"Hey Nic"
"What do you want Tanya?"
"Come in" she said still smiling. Nicki hesitantly walked in. The house was dark and there was a smell of candles throughout the living room.
"Are you expecting company?" Nicki asked confused. Tanya ignored her question and walked over to the couch and motioned for Nicki to do the same.
*9:30*
Nicki was drunk and Tanya was ready to set her trap.
"T I know you called me for a reason, what do you want?
Next thing Nicki knew Tanya was kissing her. Nicki didn't pull away at first. She actually kissed back. The kiss lasted about 2 minutes then Nicki pulled away.
"WTF NICKI!?!?"
"I can't do this Tanya, I'm with Safaree and I don't even like girls"
"That's not what that kiss just said"
"Tanya......."
"Nicki......"
Nicki started getting her stuff together so she could go home. "Nicki I swear if you don't give me what I want I'm going to tell him"
"Well what exactly do you want?"
"A relationship with you" Nicki was surprised, she couldn't believe it. She didn't know what to say or do. She just stood there.

(I wonder what Nika is going to do! Lololol)

Friend or Foe?

When SB was released from the hospital he went home with Nicki and they have been closer then ever. Everybody was happy for them. Except Tanya. Tanya thought it was all bullshit.
(Tanyas POV)
He didn't want her but now that she saved his pathetic ass life he does? Fuck that, he's stupid. He should've been with me but he choose her? Really? I'm pretty, i'm fun. Ugh! I just need to put some sense into Nickis head. Maybe we can have a girls night. She use to love those. I'll text her later and see if she wants to come over.
*Flashback to high school, a week before prom*
"Okay so we all have our dresses but we don't have a date" Nicki said sad as she looked around at Sierra and Tanya. That was her clique, plus SB of course. Sierra and Tanya knew SB liked Nicki but nobody knew Tanya liked SB. It was hard for Tanya but she kept quiet. As the girls talked about it Tanya blurted out, "what about SB?" They didn't think she meant for her but she did. Sierra spoke to soon though "Yes Nic! Go with Safaree. That would be perfect." "I'on know guys" Nicki said slightly blushing. Tanya tried to convince her not to go with him with out being to obvious. Nicki ended up going with SB. And of course Tanya acted happy for them.
*end of flashback*
It was already 6:30 whenTanya texted Nicki.
' Movie night? I miss u'
'Sure thang miss u too, how's 8?'
'Perfect! Luv ya'
Tanya put her phone down and went to the kitchen to make her and Nicki some snacks. She wanted it to be perfect. She been seeing Nicki lately but SB has been there so it's not the same. She didn't even invite Sierra. She wanted it to be her and Nic.
A little after 8 Nicki got to her house. The door was unlocked so she walked right in. "TANYAAAAA?" Nicki yelled. "You know for such a small girl you got a big ass mo....." She stopped in the middle of her sentence.
"What?" Nicki asked
"Why is he here?"
"What do you mean why is he here? Why wouldn't he be....."
"I didn't ask for him! I asked for you!"
"Don't act like we weren't ALL friends Tanya what the fuck is up with you?"
"I wanted time with you, not you AND Safaree" Tanya said putting emphasis on the word and.
SB whispered to Nicki ' I can leave babe I don't mind '
"No!" Nicki said so Tanya could hear, "fuck that we both leave, her disrespectful ass!"
"No Nicki don't go! Please, don't you miss what we had?"
Nickis eyes got big 'I know she isn't about to bring this shit up' she thought to herself.
"Nic what the fuck is she talking about?"
"I don't know Faree let's just go!"
"You know EXACTLY what I'm talking about Nic, but I guess you didn't tell your little boyfriend now did you!?"
Nicki was trying to push SB out the door before Tanya said to much. Nicki never brought it up. It was in the 11th grade. She never thought about it since the day it happened. If SB had to find out she would wanna tell him herself.
"Stop running Nicki! Tell him"
"Shut up Tanya, that was years ago!"
"What was years ago Nic?"
"Nothin...."
"I know your not lying right to my face!"
Nicki got quiet. She was looking down at the floor... How would she tell him?

Time To Celebrate?

Once they made it to Laurens house everyone was already there. SB knew that would be a perfect place for her party because everyone was always there and she always enjoyed being with her friends. 'If she's with Lauren I'll have some time to sneak away' SB thought to himself.
They walked in and everyone rushed over yelling happy birthday and greeting them both. Nicki looked at SB and smiled real big, she was happy.
"Okay Nic I'm gonna go say hi to everyone, enjoy yourself." Then he walked off and noticed she was walking with him.
"Where are you going?"
"With you, I have to say hi to everyone." 'This is gonna be a little harder than I thought! Lets see if there's another way.' SB thought to hisself while they walked around saying hi to everyone.
"Kay I'm hungry, see you later i'll be in the kitchen"
"Omg how'd you know I was starving!?, lets go"
SB gave her the "are you serious face" but she didn't see. He just walked behind her into the kitchen. Finally her favorite song came on and her little brother wanted to dance with her. Once she went into the living room SB slid upstairs to leave his letter. He read over his letter one last time ;
' Nicki, I only came back to say goodbye the right way, staying here means hurting you so i'd rather go. You might not understand now but you will. You-you-y'
He couldn't speak anymore, then he couldn't stand next thing he heard was the music stop downstairs before he began to shake. "SAFAREEEEEEE" Nicki started yelling. "I left him in the kitchen where is he!?!?" Everyone looked at her like she was crazy. "Ugh I should have never left his side!" This made her brother cry because it was his fault she left him. She felt bad and started to go after him upstairs until she seen him turn around and jump into her arms. He was panicking and couldn't speak. "Caiah tell me what's wrong" Nicki said patting his back. But he just pointed up the stairs and cried harder. She didn't understand. "Whose up there lambchop?" Her eyes got big "SAFAREE!?!" He shook his head yes as Nickis eyes got big and full with tears. "Someone call the ambulance hurry! He's sick! Call now ! Wtf are you waiting for!?!?"
"Nicki calm down you haven't seen him how do you know something's wrong?" Lauren asked.
"Lauren just call! He's sick, hurry please" Nicki pleaded in tears as she ran upstairs. Nicki knew about his sickness because his mother told her when he left by accident.
*flashback*
"Mama why are you crying?"
"I know he's grown but he can't be away from me!"
"I feel the same way" Nicki said hugging SB's mother.
"No baby, he's sick! He has Celiac Disease, what if he needs me?"
"He has what!?!?" Nicki asked starting to cry.
*ending his flashback*
Nicki was prepared she ran into the room and held his head up. She saw the note crumbled in his hand but ignored it. She kept eye contact so he wouldn't loose consciousness. When the paramedics arrived they put him on the stretcher and left immediately. "Can I ride with him?" Nicki asked and they looked at the sadness in her eyes and said yes.
*hours later*
"Doctor can you tell me anything?"
"Visiting hours are over Ms. Maraj, you have to come back tomorrow. Nicki said okay but had no intention of leaving. She snuck a chair into his room for her to sleep on and she stayed there.
*the next morning*
SB woke up thinking that last night was a bad dream but when he looked around and realized he was in a hospital he noticed it was real. He had a seizure. SB was in his thoughts so he didn't realize Nicki in the corner starring at him. She didn't make any noise, just smiled. The doctor walked in taking him out of his thoughts.
"Hello Mr. Samuels" he said while walking in.
"Goodmorning" SB said while watching him stop and twist his face.
"Is something wrong?" SB asked getting worried. "Just that visiting hours didn't start yet!" He said looking at Nicki and shaking his head. SB whipped his head around and saw Nicki sitting there and she gave him a half smile. "I'm sorry doctor she's really stubborn, she wouldn't leave even if I told her too."
"I understand, love will do that to you" the doctor said while winking at Nicki. SB just smiled.
"I'm not sure what you've been eating but it's too much gluten. You have to be careful! You nearly died. But Mrs. Stubborn saved your life. Nicki jumped up with her eyes open " I DID WHAT?" "Yes you saved his life, how did you know what to do?"
"When I found out he had Celiac Disease I got myself prepared." She looked down shyly. SB looked at her in amazement. "Baby?" SB said causing Nicki to look up. "Well I will leave you to alone" the doctor said smiling, "I'll be back in a few so be quick" he said now laughing at his own joke while heading out. "He's a mess" Nicki said shaking her head and laughing."Come here" SB said. When Nicki walked over he tugged on her shirt making her bend over then he pulled her into a kiss. She was so happy he felt the same way she did. She could finally be with him.

Two Paths Recrossed (Part 3)

SB didn't want to talk to her. He didn't even want to be looking at her. He looked over at his mother and rolled his eyes. Then he looked back to Nicki without saying a word. Nicki noticed how he was acting and she walked over to his mother to say goodbye. She whispered, 'I love you Ma, i'll call you later" then started to walk to the door when she heard SB laugh. "Oh you love her?" Nicki stopped in her tracks but didn't turn around. "So now you love her Onika answer me." Nicki stayed shut. SB got up and walked behind her. She turned around and he saw the tears in her eyes as she talked. "Yes I love her and she doesn't run away when I say it". Nicki knew that was a low blow but it hurt and he was being a kid about it.
*FLASHBACK*
"I love you Safaree"
When he heard these words he froze momentarily. Then he started to pack his stuff. Nicki was confused but once he never came back she understood that he didn't love her back.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
It hurt her that he didn't say a word. He just left for 4 months, no calls or text. NOTHING. And now here he is in her face still mad about something that she doesn't know about. He looked into her watery eyes and grabbed her face. She thought he was going to hurt her because of the anger in his eyes. 'Why isn't Mama gonna stop him?' She thought as she watched her leave the room. Nickis eyes starred straight into his then to her surprise he pulled her into a long kiss. No words after he just picked up his keys and left. Nicki sat on the couch shocked. She missed him and he's finally back and on her birthday too.
"Can you make him go to the movies with me today?"
"Onika....you wanna spend your 18th birthday in the movie theatre? I think not"
"I just wanna spend it with Safaree" Nicki said blushing.
(SB POV)
Why would I kiss her? I know we can't ever be together! I can't hurt her that way. I gotta tell her but I'm so scared. I shouldn't have come back if I wasn't ready. She's gonna hate me! I just need to stay away. The least I can do it say goodbye the right way. I'll throw her a little party with all our high school friends and while she's having too much fun to notice I'll sneak out.
(4 hours later)
"Hi"
"Hey Faree what's up?"
"Put on your dress and come to my moms house in 30 minutes"
"I don't have a dress"
"It's on your couch, see you in 30"
Nicki was confused she went down on saw a beautiful gold dress with gold shoes to match. "This nigga always forgets my jewelry!" She said out loud then smiled at the gold necklace on the table with a note 'thought I forgot? ICY NIGGA' she laughed while grabbing everything.
(Mama Samuels house)
Nicki pulled up 20 minutes late just like SB knew she would. When she got there she had to use the bathroom but her dress was too tight she knew she wouldn't make it up the stairs in time.
"Faree I have to pee!"
"Nic you know where the bathroom is, go your not a guest."
"Carry me, I won't make it with this tight ass dress you picked out"
"Okay get on my back" she gave him the death glare as he laughed and picked her up to take her to the bathroom. He pushed the fact that he had to tell her he was sick to the back of his mind. He was focused on enjoying the time they had left. To Be Continued...

Two Paths Recrossed (Part 2)

(Nickis POV)
How could I be so dumb? How could I believe all the lies? Good thing he didn't notice me. I hate him so much. I can't cry forever, I won't do it. Tomorrow is my birthday, I can't wait. Damn I don't even have plans. This sucks. I can't believe I'm about to call my mom and tell her this.
(Somewhere in Virginia)
"Yeah ma I'm coming home" he said smiling into the phone. His mother couldn't believe it it's been 4 months since she's seen him. He was her only son and she missed him.
"Okay come straight here baby, no stops!"
"I'm in Virginia I should be there tomorrow around 3"
"Just in time!!!"
"Wait for what?"
Then she hung up. He kept thinking what would he be on time for? But then he brushed it off and pulled into a hotel parking lot to get some sleep.
When he woke up it was 7 and he showered and was out by 8. He got there exactly at 3 like he said he was so happy to see his mother. But she didn't plan on having him stay there.
(Nickis POV 1 hour earlier)
"Okay I'll go, what's so important?" I swear if I don't tell this lady yet i'll never be left alone!
"Can I come over at 3?"
"Yes Onika perfect! I love you" then she hung up. She didn't even let me say I love her too! But it's 2 now and her house is about 20 minutes away. It's my birthday and I don't even have a pretty outfit or anyone to spend this day with. Oh well I guess I can spend it with my second mother! I decided on black leggings, a pink sweater and some long boots. I wore my natural hair down with no make up. I looked at the clock and it was already 2:30 so I was on my way out. When I pulled up I saw a cute manly car, I know mama ain't get no man! I laughed to myself while I use my key to get into the house.... And there he was.
(No POV)
SB sat on the couch asleep and Nicki stood in the door way admiring him. She hasn't seen him since the day she told him she loved him. He walked out the door never looking back. Nobody knew where he went and she finally moved on. But now seeing him is making her fall all over again. She stood there starring at him until she saw his mother smiling at her. "Hi mom" Nicki whispered trying not to wake him. "Happy birthday baby" Nicki smiled because she remembered. SB coming back was the best gift ever. They started to walk into the kitchen until they noticed SB waking up. Nicki went to the bathroom while SB talked to his mother.
"I have to go"
"What? Why!"
"It feels like she's here, I can smell her perfume, her shampoo" SB said getting emotional. Nicki could hear everything. She walked out and stood in front of him. He stared at her like he did when the first met......" Hi Safaree..." (To be continued)

Two paths Recrossed (Part 1)

*FAST FORWARD 4 MONTHS*
"WAKEEEE UPPPPPPP" Nicki screamed jumping on the bed.
"Babbbyyyyyyy wakeeee uppppp" Nicki said plopping on the bed. She got up to walk out the room when she heard him move on the bed to sit up. Nicki screeched running to jump on him.
*meanwhile at an apartment in Florida*
He woke up tired as usual then he got a phone call. He was indecisive but ended up picking up after the 6th ring.
"Yes mom?"
"Are you still sitting around!?! Get up and go out!"
"No leave me alone" he said hanging up the phone going to lay back down.
He hated how she's been acting these last few months. He was fine and was tired of telling her that. Deep inside he knew he was still hurting but he didn't know why. It's been months and he was done crying over her. It was time to move on! It would take a while but he was determined. Today was December 7th and he was going home. He didn't call his mother, he decided to surprise her. He cleaned himself up and started to clean up his hotel. He bought a car so he didn't have to worry about booking a flight.
*back in queens*
"Wanna go shopping?" She asked after they ate breakfast.
"No you always wanna shop Nicki, why can't we just chill?"
(Nickis POV)
Whatever. He never wants to do ANYTHING. Fuck it. I'll just go with Sierra. But damn its been a minute since I've talked to her. She'll think I'm using her and won't want to go.fuck it ill ask anyway.
'Shopping today?'
(No POV)
Nicki was surprised that she answered so quickly.
'Sure my house at 12!'
Nicki went upstairs and started to get ready. Then she began to think about how long it's been since she seen Sierra. Sierra had a baby, Nicki never judged she loved Aubrey, he was just the cutest. Only thing she didn't like was that she never met his dad. They met at a club and that's all Nicki knew about him. Oh and his first name. Aubrey.
About 30 minutes later she finally got dressed and was on her way out the door. When she got to Sierras it was in perfect shape everything looked amazing. Sierra had a big picture of her with Nicki and SB from high school. This caught Nicki's attention but she just kept walking into the house. She picked up Aubrey, he looked so much like somebody she knew but she couldn't put it all together.
*meanwhile in Florida*
It was 12 and he still wasn't sure if he wanted to go home. It was a long drive but he decided he would go. He couldn't stop thinking. He decided to blast some music for the ride. He only stopped for gas, not even food. He wanted to see his mother and to feel like everything was normal again. He stopped for gas and seen someone he didn't expect to see.
(Meanwhile in Queens Center Mall)
"Get this! You should really get this!" Nicki looked at the outfit Sierra was holding and made a face causing them both to laugh. Ever since Nicki saw that picture she wasn't feeling the same. She didn't know what was wrong with her but something was wrong.
*meanwhile at Nickis house*
He was laying in bed and his phone kept going off. He didn't know living a double life would be this complicated. When Nicki left she didn't say where she was going he didn't really mind he was just happy to get some sleep.
(Back to Queens Center Mall)
"Is his father in his life?" Nicki asked before taking a bite of her chicken. They were sitting at a table in the back if the food court. Sierra was proud to say she was still in a relationship with her babies father. Her and Nicki laughed and talked some more as Sierra texted someone.
' Pick me and the baby up, I'm ready to go home babe '
' okay see you soon '
(On the road)
He was making it home in record time. No speed limits mattered to him. Honestly nothing did anymore. He was tired but didn't want to pull over. He wasn't ready to stop. After two hours it was now 5 and he had to stop.
(Queens Center Mall)
Nicki and Sierra sat waiting for 2 hours just talking and laughing. They both talked about their relationships. Nicki was glad they had this day out, Sierra was one of her best friends! She missed her. As Nicki was talking she saw her friends face light up and baby Aubrey yelling 'daddy'. Nicki smiled at how happy they both got.
"Hey lil man" he said and Nickis smile quickly faded...... To Be Continued

Was it Worth It?

NICKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII" She heard come from upstairs, she knew Safaree would have a hangover and would need her help. She just really didn't wanna help him. She was still mad and he acted as if nothing happened. Nicki flipped the bacon then went upstairs to see why he called. He told her he had a headache and didn't feel good. She couldn't resist smiling because of how cute he was acting. She handed him a Tylenol and went to walk out the room then SB said, "thanks we'll talk later" exactly what she didn't want to hear. She wanted answers but she knew she had to answer some questions too. Nicki was indecisive, would she lie or tell him the truth? By the time SB came downstairs for breakfast she already made up her mind.
"Wanna watch a movie? Or are you going out again?" She asked with attitude with the last part. He looked up at her "If I see you texting Drake again then yeah I'm leaving," he shook his head, "Fuck imma sit in the same room with you for while Anoter nigga making you smile?" Nicki was quiet for a minute then she started to get mad. "Fuck you Safaree cause I'm not the one with bitches in my lap at some club" He was calmer then she expected.
"What were you even doing at that club?"
"What were you doing at that club?"
They stared into eachothers eyes and SB started to laugh. About a minute later Nicki started to laugh to as they talked about their night.
"I did fuck her up didn't I" Nicki said in between laughs. They both stopped laughing at the same time then Nicki took his hands, "I love you Safaree".

Lets Try To Move On

> continuing from SB's thoughts in chapter 9 <

He was deep into his thoughts when a girl a little younger than him walked up to the bar and ordered a drink. He couldn't take his eyes off of her. She thought SB was cute so she decided to talk to him.
"Hi, my name is Justina. What's yours?"
SB finished his drink then looked her over again. "My name is SB" he said with a smile. After a while of conversing she found herself sitting in SB's lap. He didn't mind, he was enjoying himself.
"WTF Safaree?" He rolled his eyes he knew it was Nicki, only she called him that. He ignored her and started to sip his drink again. She hit it out of his hand and it landed on Justina. Justina was instantly mad, "who the fuck are you! Why would you do that?" Nicki laughed and said "Don't act like you spent money on that whack ass dress" then turned back to SB.
(Drakes POV)
Who the hell is this guy? Nicki has a boyfriend? I never saw her jealous, this is sexy. I just wish it was because of me! Let me just grab her and go. Before I could pull her arm that Justina girl pulled her hair and pulled her down to the floor. Nicki pulled her down with her and began to punch her in the face.
(No POV)
SB knew how Nicki was and she wouldn't stop unless it was him who stopped her so he shook his head at Drake trying to calm Nicki down. He walked over and picked her up off of Justina and carried her to his car. Justina ran behind him yelling, "Are you seriously taking her side? Your not even gonna see if I'm okay?" Nicki didn't give SB a chance to answer before she responded to Justina. "Say something else to him and you won't be alright bitch" SB put Nicki in the car and didn't say a word to her. Just shook his head.
"WTF you mad about? You the one that got bird ass bitches..."
"Onika shut up"
Nicki rolled her eyes and kept talking, "so you left to come here with her? Who is she? When did you meet her?"
"Who are you to question me?"
(Nickis POV)
How could he do this to me? WTF? That bitch is so lucky! Thank God Drake bought me here or....... OMG ! Drake. He must be pissed. I was going to get out the car but I saw Drake already walking to SB's window. Wait what is he doing!?
(No POV)
Drake opened SB's door and punched him in his face. Nobody knew why, not even Drake knew but it was too late to take it back. SB was so drunk he could bearly process what was going on so when he fought back he didn't care how bad he hurt him. Nicki couldn't stop it herself but she sure was trying then finally when SB pinned Drake down to stop him from hitting him Nicki got his attention.
"Drake WTF is wrong with you? Are you serious? What were you thinking!"
"Nicki I thought he was going to hurt you!"
"Yeah whatever" Nicki said helping SB up. When Drake hit him the first time he busted his lip. Nicki put a drunk SB in the passenger seat and drove home never looking back. SB was whispering something and she was listening closely as he spoke. "She's mine, I love her, I want her" Nicki figured he was talking about the girl from the club and a few tears fell from her eyes.
When they got home she helped SB into the house and upstairs. Before she let him lay down she cleaned up his face and helped him out of his clothes. "He's like a big baby when he's drunk" Nicki whispered to herself while shaking her head. She knew that they would have a long talk tomorrow, one she really didn't want to have.

Where This Love Could End Up

(Nics POV)
I really need to go spend time with Drake. I mean SB has had my attention for a while and I think he's better now. In the hospital I think the fact that I couldn't have him made me want him. But now I want Drake. I think. Everytime I see SB I wanna kiss him. But I still wanna see where this thing can go with Drake. He's cute and a gentleman, I don't know if I want him but he doesn't seem to be giving up. I can't tell SB about him. I know he's my bestfriend but what he doesn't know won't hurt him!. Ugh. Here he goes again.
Drake- 'I miss you beautiful'
His text always makes me smile, he makes me feel beautiful and special. Damn I gotta pee. When I walked back into the room SB was mad. I wonder what happened. But when I asked he brushed me off and walked out. Da fuck? Whatever I grabbed my phone and went upstairs. I texted him telling him to be safe then I got a call from Drake.
(No POV)
Drake - "What you doing tonight?"
Nicki - "Nothing actually, just planned on staying home"
Drake - "I won't let that happen on a Friday night, get dressed and come out with me. Be there in a hour"
He didn't even give her a chance to answer before he hung up. She couldn't get out of it now. She didn't know where they were going so she just threw on a black fitting dress and some heels. She wasn't ready in the hour of course. When she walked downstairs Drake was sitting on her couch. 'Wtf how did this nigga get in' she asked her self but just shook it off. Nicki finished putting on her makeup then she was ready to go.
30 minutes later they pulled up to the most popular strip club in Queens. "Vixen". Drake saw her reaction when they pulled up. "It will be fun trust me" he said helping her out the car as she rolled her eyes. "Could this night get any worse" she mumbled as they walked into the club then when she looked over to the bar she realized that it already has gotten worse and wasn't getting any better.

After The Storm

It's been a week since SB got released from the hospital. He really didn't have a choice but to go with Nicki. She wouldn't let him go anywhere else. He wouldn't speak when she talked to him, he wouldn't eat and he wouldn't sleep. Nicki didn't know what else to do. He didn't let her touch him because he was scared to have contact with anyone or thing. She begin to miss his touch so one day while he was asleep in the guest room she crawled into bed with him. She snuggled into his arms and fell asleep. When he woke up he felt her smooth skin against his. He felt safe because she felt familiar. He felt like hisself just from touching her. He felt his love for her again. He was no longer lost. He climbed out of bed and cooked breakfast. When it was done he went into the room and jumped on the bed. Nickis eyes opened real quick and she starred at him smiling real big at her. "Goodmorning, you slept to long, I started missing you! I made breakfast.." Nicki cut him off with a kiss. "Faree slow down!" She smiled "I'm glad to have you back, I'll never give up on you.....on us"
*2 weeks later*
Neither SB nor Nicki brought up anything about their fight that day. They never even showed any interest in eachother. They were just bestfriends nothing more and nothing less. Yeah they kissed from time to time but it didn't mean much. They loved eachother but they never brought up being together.
(Nickis POV)
Ever since the accident I've been scared to touch him. I'm just glad the bullets are out and his surgery went fine. He's my bestfriend and I love him. She smiled thinking about it. She looked over and SB was on his phone texting away. She never bought it up but she secretly had someone. I didn't want to tell SB because we never talked about seeing other people, but we never really talked about seeing eachother either. Ugh this is confusing. What he doesn't know won't hurt him.
(No POV)
Nicki picked up her phone and texted someone. When her phone vibrated SB looked up and noticed the big smile on her face as she read the text. This made him mad, it's been him and Nicki for a while now with nobody else, he liked having her to hisself. That's selfish but he didn't care. Sb figured she had someone she liked, he knew she wouldn't wait for him forever. He just wanted to be sure, so he waited for Nicki to get up so he could look and see who she was texting. He read through some of the messages, 'Who the fuck is Drake' he whispered to hisself before sitting the phone down and walking back to the couch before Nicki came back into the room.
(SB POV)
Can I really be mad? I mean she ain't my girl. She can do what she wants. Fuck it. I ain't gonna stress her. I got people who would wanna be with me. But damn she couldn't even tell me? Fuck that, bestfriends my ass.
(No POV)
SB had a bad temper and Nicki knew that when he was mad to stay away. But this time she didn't care. "Safaree what's wrong?" He didn't answer he just got up and walked past her. "Don't wait up cause I'm not coming back" and with that he slammed the door. "Fuck wrong with this nigga?" Nicki said to herself grabbing her phone and heading up to her room. It was a Friday night and since Nicki was obviously busy texting this Drake guy he could go have some fun too. He stopped at a red light and got a text from Nicki. 'Please be safe Faree, see you later' he rolled his eyes and pulled off.
About 30 minutes later he pulled up to the best strip club in Queens called Vixen. He had a couple drinks but still couldn't stop thinking of how hurt he was. He wanted to find Drake and kill him but if Nicki was happy he would leave her alone. He was deep into his thoughts when a girl a little younger than him walked up to the bar and ordered a drink. He couldn't take his eyes off of her. She thought SB was cute so she decided to talk to him. "Hi, my name is Justina. What's yours?"
SB finished his drink then looked her over again. "My name is SB" he said with a smile.

Why Can't You See, You Belong With Me!

The room was quite, Nicki was starring at Brooke take care of her boyfriend. She couldn't help but look at her like she was crazy. What was SB thinking? He never even mentioned this girl, EVER! Mama Carol kept trying to get Nicki to leave but she wouldn't not even to pee, she was watching them real closely. EVERYTIME she went in to kiss him Nicki stopped her. She didn't know when her feelings for SB came but she knew she had to have him.
(Brooke's POV)
Idk who this bitch is or why she's still here but she's gotta go! I waited 3 years for him to want me back and now for some reason today he does! Everybody knows I was his first love, I made one little mistake. But we'll be okay, I know we will. I looked up from SB and see this bitch starring at me. "Niecy? Lemme speak to you in the hallway."
(Nickis POV)
I know this bitch didn't call me Niecy as if she doesn't know my name is Nicki but I'll talk to the hoe and let her know what's mine. When I was walking out Safaree said "don't be long babe" and we both turned around and said "I won't I promise" I looked at her and started the conversation. "Look you know damn well you haven't been with him for a while and if he wasn't in this condition he wouldn't have called you, he lost his memory today and went back a couple of years. Your a hoe from the past and I don't have time so get your shit and bounce."
(No POV)
Nicki was all worked up, 'the nerve of this hoe' she whispered while walking back into the room. Brooklynn walked into the room a few seconds later and grabbed her purse and left. SB just watched her go. "What did you do?" Nicki looked up and smiled because he actually talked to her. He looked really hurt like his heart had been broken. Nicki started to feel sad but she wouldn't let him be taking away, not like this.
"My name is Onika" she said with a smile.
"Nika?, I like that"
"No OOnika, not Nika"
"Well since you don't seem to be going anywhere I'll call you what I want but can you explain why I'm here?"
After an hour both Nic and SB were in tears as she wrapped up what happened to him. He understood he was shot three times but still didn't know who Nicki was. "Okay, but who are you?" Nicki sighed and went into details of the day they met which made her smile. "Faree, please remember me" he said now crying again. "I want you to love me like you use to. Brooklyn must have been a thing in the past but she's not your girlfriend, you don't have one! You just had me, please Faree please" Nicki pleaded as he just starred at her. She couldn't take it she sat in the chair and cried herself to sleep.

Try To Remember

When Nicki heard the beep come from SB's machine she couldn't believe it. As he started to flatline she couldn't breathe and before she knew it she fainted and collapsed to the floor. When she woke up it was quite and she didn't know where she was. She was still half asleep but when she tried to sit up she felt someone pushed her back down. "What the fuck!?" Nicki said. "Onika, watch your mouth you will NOT talk to me that way" Nicki looked down and apologized. "What are we doing here Ma? What happened". Mama Carol took a deep breath and sat on the chair near the bed and stared at the floor.
Finally she told Nicki she fainted Nicki thought it was no big deal so she texted Safaree. "Baby who are you writing?". Nicki blushed then said "SB mom" so Mama Carol took her phone. "What the..." Nicki was cut off by one of her mothers dirty looks. "Listen the reason you fainted is because you were in the room and heard Safaree's machine going off, u saw him flatline and panicked." Nicki blinked repeatedly as she started to remember then she started to cry and breath heavy. "Onika listen to me I'm not done." Nicki looked up giving her permission to continue. "Well they were able to bring him ba....." before she could finish Nicki ran into his room. She saw him sleeping and she kissed his lips. He opened his eyes and pushed her away. Since she was so weak she fell to the floor. "WTF is wrong with you?" He yelled at her and she just stared at him looking scared. Her mother walked into the room and helped her up. "That's why you should've listened, he doesn't remember us." Nickis eyes shot open as she ran to his side. He starred at her then looked away. He took out his phone and called someone while Nicki watched him closely. "Hello?"
"Yeah babe"
"Jamaica Hospital Medical Center"
"Hurry, love you"
Nicki could only hear his side of the conversation so she figured it was his mother. "Can you leave?" He asked as he turned over to get more comfortable. Nicki couldn't believe it, 'will he ever love me again?' She thought to herself. Her mother saw the worried look on her face and rubbed her back for about 5 minutes. "Baby it'll be okay". Nicki pulled herself together and walked over to SB and looked into his eyes. He started to stare back but looked away. "Why won't you remember me?" She asked him quietly as tears came down her face. "I need you to remember." SB just looked at her but soon looked down then her focus was on the door and she had a stank look on her face.
(Nickis POV)
Who this trick think she is walking in here with a fucking smile on her face? I'll fuck her up! I asked her who she was and she said "Brooklynn, with two n's". This conceited bitch! Before I could speak SB turned around with a huge smile. "What the fuck is going on" I yelled causing everyone to look at me.

I Can Only Be Me Around You (PT 2)

Nicki couldn't see, she could bearly hear. She was so scared. So many thoughts came through her head she blamed her self for SB getting shot. She couldn't live with out him. It wouldn't be the same.
(Nickis POV)
I can't see, I can only hear people around me. But they sound so far away. I wanna be with Safaree. I love him. Wait, why am I moving? What's going on?
(No POV)
"Hi I'm looking for Safaree Samuels" Mama Carol asked the nurse at the front desk of Jamaica Hospital Medical Center.
"Sure Mam' room 216, second floor". Mama Carol went straight to the elevators. She went to the second floor and to the left. She realized the numbers on the doors were too high so she started to turn around. Then she heard a Walkie-Talkie. She didn't pay much attention until she heard her daughters name. "Code red, code red! Onika Maraj room 218." Everything was moving too fast, she didn't know what to do. Alot of doctors and nurses rushing into the room and as she tried to go in they immediately pushed her out. She went next door to Safaree's room. She couldn't help but cry.
(Mama Carols POV)
Why them? What went wrong? Why didn't I know Nicki was checked in too? My babies! I can't believe this. There's nothing I can do. She began to cry hysterically and pray.
(No POV)
Mama Carols sobs were interrupted by Safaree coughing. He looked at her, he tried to talk but nothing came out. He looked down and remembered he got shot. He knew him and Chris weren't cool. But shooting him? That was over the line and he wanted pay back. SB started looking around as tears came out of his eyes. Mama Carol noticed and stood up. "She's here baby, don't worry" she said passing him water. 'Who is she talking about' he thought to himself. He just looked at her confused then she realized he didn't know what she was talking about. After drinking the water he spoke because his throat was no longer dry. "Who are you?" he asked. She knew this would be a long night, how could she explain to ger daughter that the love of her life lost his memory and wouldnt remember her at all?

I Can Only Be Me Around You (PT1)

Nicki sat there dazed with tears filling her eyes just holding his hand. She kept talking to him but he didn't answer. She was beyond scared. She decided she'd tell him how she felt since he couldn't hear her, so she thought.
(Nickis POV)
I hated seeing him like that, who would do this to him? The man I love is here laying on this bed and I can't do anything to help him. Wait......I love safaree?

*Flashback- 2 hours earlier*
(No POV)
"Please stop drinking?" He asked her nicely but she wouldn't. She just wouldn't. SB stormed out of her house, he didn't want to be bothered with her. His phone vibrated once he hit his car.
My baby - i'on know why your being dramatic! Come back inside and drink with me :)
He shook his head and drove off. He had no specific place in mind, just far away from her.
(SB POV)
Why can't she just listen to me? WTF? She makes everything so complicated.
My Future - I Love You
(No POV)
By this time what SB didn't know she was already really drunk, what she texted back really hurt so he called his close friend Michael. He knew Nicki didn't like him with Michael because he was a drug dealer but he didn't like her drinking. Safaree hated drugs, he'd never do them or sell them, especially knowing what they did to her family! He wanted her to be mad, not kill him she was small but crazy and everybody knew it. Nicki was young, she was 17 and SB was 18, being older meant nothing to him she was his queen.
Nicki kept calling SB and leaving voicemails. SB had to drive because Michael was feeling dizzy. SB stopped at a red light and read one of his many text messages from Nicki. ' I hate you ' . That burned a whole in his heart he couldn't believe it. SB was so into his thoughts that when him and Michael got out of the car he didn't notice the car pull up beside them. He was calling and calling Nicki. When she answered she could only hear 3 loud bangs.
*end of flashback*
As she sat there in the hospital beside an unconscious Safaree she kept hearing the gun shots. "I love you Safaree, I need you to wake up and be okay....if I wouldn't have been drinking you wouldn't have left, I'm so sorry! Who did this to you? Answer me!" She yelled getting mad, not because he didn't answer but because he couldn't. Then the machine started to beep then everything turned black.....

We Can't Be Friends

SB wouldn't give up, he wouldn't take no for an answer. Nicki liked that, she wanted to be with him but she wasn't ready. 'If he likes me as much as he says then he'll wait' she thought to herself. For a week now he's been sending her flowers and other little gifts but he hasn't been coming around. She really started to miss him so she decided to text him and when 'my baby' came across his screen he knew his plan worked.
My Baby - 'when am I gonna see you Faraee?'
My Future - 'whenever we go on that date'
She rolled her eyes at the last message before responding. She thought they could go to the movies and nothing happen, I mean they were bestfriends right?
Around 5 the next day SB showed up to her house and of course she wasn't ready. He wanted her to just put on some jeans, a t-shirt and some sneakers because he was getting tired of waiting. "Mama I don't wanna wait anymore to call her mine" SB said to Mama Carol who has grown to love him over these past months. "I don't want you to wait either son but Onika is stubborn, you can't force her" as soon as she finished her sentence she knew he hadn't been listening because his eyes were glued to Nicki at the top of the steps. She smiled showing her dimple, "Faraee carry me down? I don't wanna fall" she said whining, so he went to the top and scooped her up. He loved moments like this even though she thought of it as bestfriend things, he had to change her mind and quick, he couldn't be her friend so his plan was in effect. They said bye to Mama Carol and he carried her out to the car.

Let Me Love You

After a few more drinks SB decided to go home to his apartment in Brooklyn. He never went to clubs in Brooklyn, he felt it was too close to home and he liked new things. Nicki was definitely new to him. He couldn't get her off his mind. From her dimples to the scent of his perfume. He had been in love only one time before but not even she made him feel like this.
*Safaree's POV*
A week later after meeting Nicki decided to go to the same club and hoped to see her again. Sadly her friends couldn't convince her to go out that day. I talked to them for a while trying to get to know move about her. I really needed to talk to her. Her friends seemed so different from her, they were loud and outspoken but not Nicki, she was quiet and had mystery to her. He liked that. When he finally got her number he wasted no time texting her.
*nickis POV*
Me and my lampchop we're watching Judge Judy when I got a text but I didn't know who it was. You would think it's the first thing somebody would say. The message said, ' I don't date guys I meet at bars '. She was really confused she figured it was the wrong number but about 30 minutes later she got another text from that number saying 'Slow Jams by Usher' then she thought back to the club and smiled. She finally answered 'Tell my friends I'm gonna kill them'.
(NO POV)
Weeks have past and they became closer. SB thought it was time to finally make his move. "Nic let's go to the movies." She gave him a confused look. "Faree what's wrong with this movie? Now shh! Pay attention!" He got up and went to the bathroom, he was tired of her playing games. They have been friends for two months but he wanted more, he need more. Nicki knew she started having feelings for him but she didn't want to admit it. Nicki was stubborn and she was not about to let him change that. Mama Carol has been telling her to give it a try. Aside from SB her mother was her bestfriend but she didn't think her mom was right. She didn't wanna ruin the friendship they built.
When SB came back from the bathroom he stood at the door watching her think, he knew something was on her mind but he didn't wanna push it. "What you lookin at?" She asked pulling him out of his own day dream. He whispered 'the girl that should be mine' as he sat down next to her and finished watching the show. She smiled and moved closer because she could tell he was mad but she wouldn't rush him to talk.

When I First Saw You

* 3 Years Earlier *

Nicki and her 3 close friends were out partying. They didn't have a care in the world. Nicki was more focused on her school work and would bearly go out so they really had to force her. It was a Friday night and she usually stayed home to watch her little brother but she got out of it. They went to Club Tobago in queens. They got there around 9 and as soon as they walked in they went to the bar. Nicki just sat down and ordered a water.
"Water Nic really? Have fun tonight" Nicki just looked away and watched the dance floor. She didn't realize she was being watched.
Across the room a guy a little older than her was falling in love with her smile. He finally walked over to her.
"Hi what's your name?" He asked nicely. She looked at him and laughed. Her friends looked at her shocked. "What the hell is wrong with her" they all thought while they exchanged looks.
"Well my name is Safaree" he continued while she laughed. "Your really beautiful and your laugh is too" then he smiled. When she saw his smile she got serious. She liked it but she didn't tell him that. "Thank you" she said turning in her chair then she saw all her friends give her the serious face. She was going to go find him but when she turned around he was still there, this made her smile. "Hi my name is Onika, Safaree". He liked how she said his name, he was speechless. He just looked at her. She was starring into his eyes. "Can we dance?" He asked when a slow song came on. They danced until her feet hurt then she went back to her seat and he followed. "I had a really nice time" he smiled, "but...." He looked up surprised. ' but what?' He thought to himself. "But I don't date guys I meet at clubs" Then she got up and walked out as her friends shook their heads and walked behind her. "Damn this isn't going to be easy, but I'll work for it" he thought to himself as he ordered a drink.

Please Forgive Me

"Safaree, stop the car" 

"Safaree STOP!" She yelled a little more annoyed now. 

They have been speeding down the streets of L.A for 20 minutes now. She didn't know where they were going or why he was so mad. She just wanted to be home with him. He passed through red lights, stop signs and almost hit a few people. When she looked into his eyes she saw anger which scared her. She saw him mad before but this was new. She never saw him mad to where he would ignore her, 'what could be so bad that he couldn't talk to his girlfriend about? His bestfriend?' She thought to herself but then her thoughts wen't away as the car slowed down. Then she heard him yelling her name. "Why are you yelling at me?" She asked but he continued to yell her name and apologize. Then she realized she was looking at him holding her in his arms and the car was completely ruined. He wouldn't stop crying and telling people to call 911.