Mind Games

"Nicki where's MaKayla?"

"Faree I never had a baby... I swear"

SB just looked down. It's been two days since he got home from the hospital. He still hasn't asked what happened so he still believes what ever he imagined was real. This worried Nicki. 

"Faree I'm going shopping, wanna come?"

"Sure...."

1 hour later they were dressed and while he headed outside to the car Nicki went to the kitchen and grabbed a water and headed outside. 

"What? Is the car locked?" She asked looking at him funny. 

"Nic why am I scared to get in?" She sighed but it was more of a happy sigh. "Faree don't you remember our accident?" She pulled her hair back and showed him how badly her forehead was cut. 

"Oh my god Nicki what happened!" He rushed to her and looked at her head closely.

"Lets go back in Faree, we can shop later." She walked into the house and closed the door behind him then met him on the couch and started to explain. 

After an hour of explaining he was starting to get it. He felt sad. He felt scared. But most of all he was disappointed for many reasons. 

"So I was jealous? And that nearly killed us?"

"Faree don't think about it like that"

"What other way is there to think about it?" The room went quite and he stared at the floor. After a while Nicki spoke up. 

"Come on, how about some shopping now?" He didn't answer, but he did stand up. Nicki grabbed her keys off the table and started behind him towards the door then he made a right and went straight upstairs. 

"Safaree? You coming?" He didn't even turn back. 2 seconds later she heard his door close. 

The doctor said it would be likely for him to go through a bunch of different emotions. Confusion being one and also depression. Nicki went to his room. She knocked, no answer. She was about to turn away when she heard the door unlock. She opened the door and saw him getting back into bed. She didn't talk. She just laid with him and they fell asleep. 

Nicki was awoken by Safaree yelling "Makayla" over and over. She thought it was cute how he wanted a daughter with her and he already had named her. But what she didn't like was that it hurt him to not have one. She continued to listen to the things he was saying. It started to sound like he was arguing with someone. Then she heard him say 'dad'. Although she knew all about him, he didn't talk about his dad much. Only that he made him feel bad all the time, like less of a man. Nicki knew she had to build Safarees confidence. She took a deep breath.

"Faree, Faree wake up!!" 

"What's wrong?" 

"Can you come with me to the kitchen?" When she asked that he just looked at her, directly into her eyes but he saw how serious she was. For a second she thought he caught on to her plan but he didn't which made her laugh to her self. She grabbed his hand and they both stood up. Him leading the way to the kitchen. 

"Want anything specific?" He asked when they got in there. 

"The cereal, but I can't reach it" he grabbed the cereal and handed it to her. 

"Faree, you know I need you for the bowl too" he smiled when she said she needed him. It was working out. But how long was it going to take? 

"Come on, I gotta pee" 

"Onika, I know you short but I'm sure you can reach the toilet" he joked

"I just want you to come with me babe, makes me feel safe" she made a sad face that turned into a smirk as she turned her back to him. He picked her up and carried her to the bathroom. Faree looked happy, which made her happy. But there was one thing still on Nickis mind, a daughter.