Mind Games

"Nicki where's MaKayla?"

"Faree I never had a baby... I swear"

SB just looked down. It's been two days since he got home from the hospital. He still hasn't asked what happened so he still believes what ever he imagined was real. This worried Nicki. 

"Faree I'm going shopping, wanna come?"

"Sure...."

1 hour later they were dressed and while he headed outside to the car Nicki went to the kitchen and grabbed a water and headed outside. 

"What? Is the car locked?" She asked looking at him funny. 

"Nic why am I scared to get in?" She sighed but it was more of a happy sigh. "Faree don't you remember our accident?" She pulled her hair back and showed him how badly her forehead was cut. 

"Oh my god Nicki what happened!" He rushed to her and looked at her head closely.

"Lets go back in Faree, we can shop later." She walked into the house and closed the door behind him then met him on the couch and started to explain. 

After an hour of explaining he was starting to get it. He felt sad. He felt scared. But most of all he was disappointed for many reasons. 

"So I was jealous? And that nearly killed us?"

"Faree don't think about it like that"

"What other way is there to think about it?" The room went quite and he stared at the floor. After a while Nicki spoke up. 

"Come on, how about some shopping now?" He didn't answer, but he did stand up. Nicki grabbed her keys off the table and started behind him towards the door then he made a right and went straight upstairs. 

"Safaree? You coming?" He didn't even turn back. 2 seconds later she heard his door close. 

The doctor said it would be likely for him to go through a bunch of different emotions. Confusion being one and also depression. Nicki went to his room. She knocked, no answer. She was about to turn away when she heard the door unlock. She opened the door and saw him getting back into bed. She didn't talk. She just laid with him and they fell asleep. 

Nicki was awoken by Safaree yelling "Makayla" over and over. She thought it was cute how he wanted a daughter with her and he already had named her. But what she didn't like was that it hurt him to not have one. She continued to listen to the things he was saying. It started to sound like he was arguing with someone. Then she heard him say 'dad'. Although she knew all about him, he didn't talk about his dad much. Only that he made him feel bad all the time, like less of a man. Nicki knew she had to build Safarees confidence. She took a deep breath.

"Faree, Faree wake up!!" 

"What's wrong?" 

"Can you come with me to the kitchen?" When she asked that he just looked at her, directly into her eyes but he saw how serious she was. For a second she thought he caught on to her plan but he didn't which made her laugh to her self. She grabbed his hand and they both stood up. Him leading the way to the kitchen. 

"Want anything specific?" He asked when they got in there. 

"The cereal, but I can't reach it" he grabbed the cereal and handed it to her. 

"Faree, you know I need you for the bowl too" he smiled when she said she needed him. It was working out. But how long was it going to take? 

"Come on, I gotta pee" 

"Onika, I know you short but I'm sure you can reach the toilet" he joked

"I just want you to come with me babe, makes me feel safe" she made a sad face that turned into a smirk as she turned her back to him. He picked her up and carried her to the bathroom. Faree looked happy, which made her happy. But there was one thing still on Nickis mind, a daughter. 

Please Forgive Me ( part two )

(SB POV) 

How could I let my emotions get the best of me like that? What if I lost her forever? I can't believe it. "CALL 911, PLEASE! Help us!!!!!" I kept yelling for help but nobody could hear me. I looked down and held her lifeless body. The last time we talked it was an argument. I can't believe I was ready to give her up. I was willing to let her be with Drake. But if she makes it I will fight. Ill fix this. "Please forgive me Nicki" I whispered to her then kissed her forehead. 

"Sir we have to get you to the hospital" 

"Why? She's hurt not me" 

"Sir, don't you feel your leg? Your head? do you feel dizzy at all? WE NEED ANOTHER STRETCHER". I immediately looked down and saw the deep cut in my leg. But I couldn't worry about me. I needed to be with Nicki. I got up to walk and show them I'm fine but that didn't work. I fell right next to Nicki. "I love you babe" was the last thing I said before everything went black. 

We were out of the hospital in no time. Nicki was mine, I had no worries. My head still hurt a little but as a man I couldn't show that. I'm in love with a girl that I can spend my life with. I'm so lucky! Damn yo wtf is that!? I thought to myself. Around the same time everyday since I left the hospital I feel like something is poking me in my leg, like a needle. Must be from the accident. Oh yeah, Nicki is pregnant... My leg might messed up but my dick game still good. Damn, I'm kinda hungry! Fuck this diet yo, it ain't shit. But it's best I stay fit. Nicki wants me to diet with her so that's what i'll do! Fuck... This room is hot. And there goes that pain again... I hope we have a girl.... I want a little princess. A little coon would be cool too but a coonette to be just like her mother is better. I couldn't help but smile whenever I thought of that. I wouldn't mind having a son either, at all actually. I'm happy with whatever! I'm just glad we made it through everything. I think I was meant to be with Nicki. Speaking of her, I haven't seen her in hours... But it feels like weeks. Where is she. I started to yell her name but she was really far away. I tried to get up but for some reason I felt glued to the bed. I moved until I felt that sharp pain again. I heard Nickis voice getting closer and closer... What's taking so long? I kept feeling soft hands shake my face but I don't see anyone. I actually don't see anything. 

 [Nicki POV] 

I see him start to move so I yelled for the doctor. For the last 2 months he's been doing this. But this time is different. His feet moved too. He isn't paralyzed anymore! "What's taking so long!?" I yelled while I continuously pressed the nurse button by his hospital bed. Then i sat in the chair near his bed and thought back to the day of the accident. 

*flashback*

"I don't need stitches just let me see him"

"Ma'am you can see him soon, please! You need to be treated" after a while she stopped fighting. It took about a half hour and then she was back by his room door. 

"Um why is he still sleeping" she looked around confused. 

"THERE'S ABOUT 6 DOCTORS IN THIS ROOM, SOMEBODY KNOWS SOMETHING!!!!" 

"Miss please calm down, a nurse will come in here and explain to you as soon as we leave"

*end of flashback* 

"Ma'am did you hear me? I said your boyfriend is out of his coma now." Nickis head spun around and she saw him waking up. They locked eyes, didn't move, didn't show emotion. The doctors walked out the room and about 2 minutes later a tear ran down her cheek. 

"I've missed you" he didn't reply. Just stared at her stomach. 

"Aren't you happy? Everything can go back to normal!" She said now smiling.

"You killed my baby so everything can be "normal" ?" 

"Safaree what baby?" She asked as the doctor walked in. 

"Um... What's he talking about a baby!?" 

"In a coma you don't stop living, his dreams lived on while his body laid still. He'll realize it was just a dream sooner or later." 

Nicki sighed and sat down, she whispered to herself... 'Will this ever end?'

Lmfaooo look at u all confused and shit :[[ I'm going to start writing and posting more frequently btw! How you actually like this story. 

Please Forgive Me ( part one )

Haven't updated in forever lol enjoy 

Nicki came back home a few hours later. It gave both of them some time to cool off. When she walked in she immediately spotted SB on the couch starring at the door. She went to talk to him but he spoke first. 

"I just wanna know were you with HIM?" He said as calm as possible. Nicki wasn't expecting that she was confused. "With who SB?" She replied with an attitude. He shook his head and stood up. Slowly making his way to the kitchen so he wouldn't hurt his foot too much. "I asked you a question....who?" SB looked at her for a minute. At first he felt like she truly was confused but then he thought back to all the text messages and calls he'd found earlier. He picked up her phone and pulled them back up. "Him" he simply said. She shook her head no and walked over to the fridge thinking the conversation was over. "Who is he?" "Why isn't his number saved?" "Are you cheating on me?" "When did all of this start?" "Answer me dammit!". SB finally took a minute to breath after asking all his questions. He figured she wasn't going to answer any of his questions so he started to leave the kitchen. He heard a small whisper. "I know you didn't just say what I think it was. Get in the car Onika". SB charged upstairs not caring about his injured foot. 

(SB POV) 

How could she? She wanna talk to that niggas after everything we been through together? If he wants her he can have her. 

(No POV) 

When he got back downstairs he was putting on his jacket. He didn't even realize he was crying. He noticed she was still standing in the kitchen. "DIDN'T I SAY GET IN THE FUCKING CAR ONIKAAA!?!" She jumped at his voice and hurried past him into the car. She noticed him crying but decided against it. He began speeding and crying even harder. 

"Safaree, stop the car" 

"Safaree STOP!" She yelled a little more annoyed now. They have been speeding down the streets of L.A for 20 minutes now. She didn't know where they were going or why he was so mad. She just wanted to be home with him. He passed through red lights, stop signs and almost hit a few people. When she looked into his eyes she saw anger which scared her. She saw him mad before but this was new. She never saw him mad to where he would ignore her, 'what could be so bad that he couldn't talk to his girlfriend about? His bestfriend?' She thought to herself but then her thoughts wen't away as the car slowed down. Then she heard him yelling her name. "Why are you yelling at me?" She asked but he continued to yell her name and apologize. Then she realized she was looking at him holding her in his arms and the car was completely ruined. He wouldn't stop crying and telling people to call 911.

The Silent Treatment

             Nicki had been crying for two hours now. She thought to herself maybe she should wake him up but she wasn't ready to admit she was wrong yet. He finally opened his eyes , he went to move then he felt a sharp pain in his foot. He yelled out causing Nicki to jump. She was cleaning up his room out of guilt. She really felt bad. She didn't know how to explain her self to him. 

"What the fuck did you do?" 

Nicki being the stubborn person she is yelled back at him. Instead of going with her well thought out apology she cursed him out and blamed him. 

"I didn't do anything! This is your fault!" 

"HOW!?!?" 

"Safaree don't act like you didn't leave me when I needed you the most"

"Onika, are you kidding!? You were SLEEPING! WTF could I do for you!?"

She started to lower her voice, "hold me......"

          SB got up and hopped to the couch. He didn't want look at her. At this point he was as mad at her as he had ever gotten. He thought he could never hold a grudge with her but that was then and she'd never physically hurt him before this. He began to think to himself how this could effect him. 

                     (SB POV)

What if I can't dance anymore? What if I start to walk funny? What if I can't ride any of my motorcycles? What if I can't forgive her?

(No POV)

              He felt a tear roll down his cheek but he didn't wipe it. He let it fall. Nicki has been sitting on the couch next to him for 10 minutes now and he didn't noticed. Either he didn't notice or he didn't care. Either way it hurt her. She just stared at him. She didn't know what to say. She knew she had to apologize. For hurting him and for blaming him. She just needed to know he forgave her. Before she knew it she woke up on the couch. She was surprised, he never let her stay there the whole night. She sighed because she figured she had a lot of making up to due. She stood up and went to go do her morning duties. 

               After her shower to went to find SB. "Want me to change your bandage?" She asked as he played Black Ops on his playstation. He didn't look away from his game. He just ignored her. She never knew how it felt to be ignored by him..... She didn't like it. He was her rock. When she broke down he held it together for both of them. She sighed and went to sit on his lap. She figured he would tell her move but at least he would be speaking to her. But she was wrong, he didn't say a word. He just continued to play the game. This made her mad. "I don't have time for your little attitude" she sighed and walked off after again not getting a response from him. She was tired of the games. 

SB still didn't want to talk to Nicki but he did notice she wasn't home. He started to wonder where she went. He called her phone then realized she left it. When he went to get it he saw a lot of text messages and calls to and from an unknown number. 'Wow, so she doing sneaky shit?' He asked hisself while putting down her phone and returning to his room. 

Surprise Visit

SB came in with his duffle bag around 4 P.M. The house was dark just like he left it. He figured Nicki was still in a bad mood. He went to drop off his gym bag and then shower before going to get her out of bed. When he opened his room door he heard light snores and smiled at the fact that Nicki went in there to find him. He took of his sneakers so he can quietly walk over to the bed to give Nicki a kiss before he got in the shower because he was sweaty, then he would lay with her until she woke up. While he was walking over he stepped on something and yelled.
"FUCKKKKKKKKKKK" he tried to stop yelling because she was sleep. He didn't want to wake her up but failed. She popped up when she heard him yell and ran over to turn on the light.
"Omg Safaree what are you doing here?" Nicki asked confused. SB didn't answer her, he was busy looking around in shock. He finally looked at his foot which caused him to get madder. He had blood dripping from his foot. SB liked to seem tough but he couldn't deny he hated blood. He could never stand the sight of it. He was across the room holding on to the dresser for support. Nicki looked down and noticed his cut. Before she could say something she saw his eyes close and he started to fall. She ran to catch him so he wouldn't fall but she was too late.
Nicki was panicking, she felt guilty and she was scared. She went downstairs to go get some water to pour on him. When she got back with a cold water bottle she stood in shock for a minute. She grabbed the alcohol and band aids off the dresser and started to clean him up before she actually woke him up just in case it was too over whelming for him again. She looked at the cut and wiped away the tear that escaped her eye. She no longer felt drunk, she didn't feel anything but the numbness in her heart. She was numb and mad at nobody but her self. Since she is so small he couldn't pick him up so she dragged him over to the bed and layed him down. His feet were hanging off the edge. She cleaned up his foot then put a bandage. She put him under the covers and went back to where he was sitting at first. It was then that she noticed all the blood he lost and she couldn't help but let her tears flow. She continued to cry as she walked to the bathroom to get some towels to clean up the floor although it was no use since it was white carpet. She began to get mad again. She was about to go into another drunken rage.
(Nickis POV)
This is his fault not mine! I shouldn't feel bad. I shouldn't even be helping him. He left. Who gave him the right to come back? I can't believe it. He left me but he got me feeling like this is my fault. Nigga how old are you? You should know to look down when your walking! Fuck this.
(No POV)
Nicki gave up cleaning the carpet and started to walk out the room. She noticed his bag on the floor and she walked over to it slowly. Wondering if she should look inside. She slowly unzipped it then she slid down the door in defeat. He hasn't left her, he just went to the gym for a couple of hours. That's when she seen a little paper under the dresser. It read ' Nic I'll be back, just need to work out, a coon gotta stay sexy ;) - BC1 ' Nicki began to cry. The note must have fallen because the window was open so she couldn't have seen it earlier. She felt stupid and she sat there crying her eyes out.

Does the Truth Mean GoodBye?

It's been two weeks since the affair started and SB was getting suspicious. Nicki didn't want to be with Tanya but she couldn't let SB find out what happened in 11th grade. She just couldn't. SB knew something was up. Nicki would leave late at night. She came back one morning with a hickey on her chest. SB saw it when she was changing then she quickly tried to hide it. SB wouldn't sleep with her any more. He'd rather stay on the couch. He bearly looked at her nor touched her. This was killing her. Some days she would come in crying. She couldn't take it any more.
"Safaree" She cried.
"What's wrong Nic?"
"I miss you"
"I'm always here what do you mean?"
"I have to tell you something"
(SB POV)
I'm tired of the lies. I honestly don't have time. I just hate to see her cry. I love her smile too much. I wonder what she has to tell me. Is she cheating on me? Is it over?
(No POV)
"Safaree are you listening?"
"Sorry, what were you saying?"
"In 11th grade I .... I .... I" Nicki started to cry even harder. SB rubbed her back. He had so many thoughts running through his head.
"It's okay Nic tell me"
"I kissed Tanya.... I don't know why! I just ..... I don't know! But I was curious and ....." She saw the smirk on his face . "What's so funny?!"
"Nicki I know that! I was there! What's the big secret!?"
Nickis eyes got wide. "Omg I feel so stupid Faree!!" She cried more. "Nicki babe what did I say? I'm sorry"
"Tanya.... She forced me to have an affair with her or she would tell you things, LIES! But I was scared and..."
"That's who gave you those hickeys?" SB said more calmly then she expected. Nicked just nodded without making eye contact. SB touched her chin and pushed her head up to make her look at him.
"You didn't have to do that Nicki, why didn't you just tell me?"
"I don't know Faree maybe because I'm stupid?" Nicki got up and went to her room. She didn't come out all day. Being with Tanya made her feel nasty. Not because Tanya is a girl but because she was a cheater. And all for no reason. She knew SB was mad but didn't say anything. But SB wasn't mad. He actually understood. He was uneasy about the fact that she went behind his back but seeing her a mess was enough suffering for him. He knew she was truly sorry. But he also knew she needed space.
The next morning when she woke up it was around 2 P.M. She didn't usually sleep that late. When she went to go look for SB she noticed he was gone. His duffle bag wasn't in the closet where it usually is and a couple of clothes from his dresser were gone. She knew she messed up but she didn't think leaving her was the right answer. She couldn't take it. She started to mess his room up. She threw clothes every where and poured all his jewelry onto the floor. She couldn't breath from all the crying and movement at the same time so she layed in his bed and soon enough she was asleep.

Black Mail

When Nicki and SB got back to the car Nicki let out a deep breath. SB looked at her waiting for an explanation. Nicki just looked at him. SB nodded in an understanding way then pulled off. Nicki had her eyes closed most of the ride until she got a text.
Tanya - hope you tell him before I do ;)
Nicki - what do you want!?!
Tanya- you should know
Nicki didn't reply she just thought. She was so deep in her thoughts that she didn't realize they were parked in front of their house.
"Nicki!?!?!"
"Yeah Faree?, I'm sorry"
"It's okay just come on let's go inside it's freezing" Nicki nodded her head in agreement then started to get out the car and make her way into the house. She went upstairs and locked her door then later down in the dark. After SB checked the alarm and locked all the doors he went to go talk to Nicki. He realized the door was closed so he went down to the couch to get some sleep. But he couldn't he wanted to know her secret. It was killing him.
*the next morning*
SB woke up with Nicki starring at him. She was sitting on the couch opposite of him biting her lip nervously. 'I can tell him' she kept repeating to herself. Then she got a text.
Tanya- we don't have to tell him
Nicki- so why'd u bring it up!?
Tanya- I mean u can come over and we can talk about other ways to keep this a secret.
Nicki- NO
Tanya- see you at 7 tonight <3
Nicki sighed loud and noticed SB was now sitting up watching her.
"Hey Faree"
"Wassup Nic? Something bothering you?"
Nicki quickly changed the subject. "I'm hungry Faree I just wanted you to wake up and cook for me" she said forcing a smile. SB knew she was lying but he let her slide, he was too tired to fight.
After breakfast they just chilled out all day. SB was patiently waiting for her to tell him. At around 5:30 he thought she was finally about to tell. "SB?"
"Wow you haven't called me that in a while but what's up?"
"I have to go" Nic said rushing to the door and leaving before he could even object.
(Nickis POV)
What could she want from me? Money? Well let me just go and see. I was kinda anxious to get this over with. Is it that bad? Why am I so scared SB will loose feelings for me if he found out? Damn I think I messed up big time.
(SB POV)
WTF? Where did she go? She couldn't even say where she was going? Maybe if I text her I'll get some answers. Maybe this has something to do with Tanya weird ass. Well I'll see later, I need a nap!.
(No POV)
Nicki pulled up to Tanyas house. She sat outside for a couple minutes because she didn't know if she should go in or not. Finally she took a deep breath and got out the car. Before she even knocked on the door Tanya pulled it open. She was standing there with a big smile on her face.
"Hey Nic"
"What do you want Tanya?"
"Come in" she said still smiling. Nicki hesitantly walked in. The house was dark and there was a smell of candles throughout the living room.
"Are you expecting company?" Nicki asked confused. Tanya ignored her question and walked over to the couch and motioned for Nicki to do the same.
*9:30*
Nicki was drunk and Tanya was ready to set her trap.
"T I know you called me for a reason, what do you want?
Next thing Nicki knew Tanya was kissing her. Nicki didn't pull away at first. She actually kissed back. The kiss lasted about 2 minutes then Nicki pulled away.
"WTF NICKI!?!?"
"I can't do this Tanya, I'm with Safaree and I don't even like girls"
"That's not what that kiss just said"
"Tanya......."
"Nicki......"
Nicki started getting her stuff together so she could go home. "Nicki I swear if you don't give me what I want I'm going to tell him"
"Well what exactly do you want?"
"A relationship with you" Nicki was surprised, she couldn't believe it. She didn't know what to say or do. She just stood there.

(I wonder what Nika is going to do! Lololol)